Loved From The Start.
by KristinaStar
-"If I knew him, I'd probably fall for him."-
We were 15 years old, Melissa and I, just chatting away about people we went to school with while rehersing our songs for the big show in July. As Melissa was flipping through pictures, she told me about her best friend, Val, whom was in 'love' with this boy named Kevin.
"He's really funny. Very quiet though. Smart. Pretty cute. Really easy to get along with. And quite talented when it comes to music apparently." Melissa looked up at me from her photographs and smiled.
"...What?" I asked with a smirk. She just giggled and told me that we'd probably make a cute couple. I laughed along with her and told her if I knew him, I'd probably fall for him - he seemed perfect.
Two years went by, and the beginning of College was approaching. I told myself this would be my time to shine - to start all over. And I refused to fall for anyone... 'I can't get hurt again'.
But, like always, that didn't go as planned. As I walked the halls with my friends, this boy - handsome, mysterious, and seemed perfect - completely blew me off my feet. I didn't know his name, his voice, his personality... All I knew, was that it was love at first sight.
Not long after, I met this girl named Val. We were in English Literature together, and became the best of friends. Soon after spending almost all our time together, she introduced me to her friends - and one of them just happened to the be the boy I couldn't get my mind off of. His name was Kevin. He was hilarious, intelligent, sweet, such a gentlemen, and an amazing musician. I knew he was the one for me...
Until I met Alex - his girlfriend. For the first time in my life, I decided not to get involved. He meant too much to me as it was, and if I truly loved him, I knew I had to let him live his life; I refused to hurt him just so I could have a chance to be his.
We all became friends, and as painful as it was, I listened to Alex and all her nonstop talk about Kevin. Even helped both of them mend some of their relationship problems. After months of enduring this 'self-torture' and friends bugging to know if I liked Kevin. Mutual friends all told me he was a loyal man, and would never cheat. But for some reason, they all believed he was interested in me.
"You must be really special for Kevin to like you while dating Alex."
But that's the thing... I'm not special. Just an average girl with a lot of complex issues. He'd never fall for me, right?
As much as I had to know the truth, I ignored it all with the best of my abilites. Convincing myself that the rumors were just simply that - rumors.
The year was coming to a close, and my hearts' love for him only grew stronger. I had to admit what I felt, or else I wouldn't be able to breathe any longer. And surprisingly, he admitted to having feelings in return.
We kissed - I swear, time stood still.
The earth completely disappeared, my stunned heart stopped beating and my body wanted to collaspe.
After spending an entire day together, enjoying each other's company and confessing our feelings - he said he'd leave her.
"I'm only happy when I'm with you."
But he didn't... He didn't do anything. Didn't call. Didn't write. Didn't come see me. The only thing he did do, was disappear.
My heart was broken - for the first and only time in my life. I was crushed. A shattered mess.
I told myself that it was time for a change. School had now finished, and I began working at a daycare. With that, I decided to change everything, from head to toe. But despite my best efforts, I still couldn't change who I truly am.
After a few months of not hearing a word from Kevin, and crying endless whenever I saw the picture of him with Alex, he finally spoke to me. At the beginning, things went smoothly, as if nothing had happened. But I had to know the truth, even if it wrecked our current rekindled friendship.
I had it all wrong. Everyone told me he was a jerk, an idiot for doing what he had done to me, that I was just being played from the beginning.
But it wasn't that at all.
He was just as scared as I was. Scared I'd hurt him like I did the others, scared to hurt Alex the way girls had hurt him, and scared because he was in love with me.
To this day, he still admits leaving was the biggest mistake he could make, but at the time, he didn't know what else to do. Lost and confused, he thought if he pretended nothing had happened, that the feelings for me would fade away along with my memory. But with time, it only got stronger.
It took some time, but we eventually fixed things. Began building our friendship again, and life was back on track. The only thing in our way was his still on-going relationship with Alex. But even then, when we were together, it was like we had never parted - like we were dating all the long. Even our friends questioned if our friendship was more of a relationship than anything.
"Please don't make me regret this, but Kristy, I love you."
My heart sank.
I wanted to cry with joy, I wanted to cry with pain, I wanted to jump around hysterically and scream from the top of my lungs. I didn't know what to do.
"Kevin, I love you too."
Didn't take long after then for him to gain the courage to leave Alex. And despite all that had happened between us, we began dating.
It's been a year now, and I'm happier then ever. We had a lot of tough times together, but pulled through, and made it to Heaven. It took months before we could get over the trust issues, and the constant worry of either one of us leaving - but here we are.
Every time we are out together, we're asked "When should we expect the wedding invitations and the 'big' announcement of a baby?".
Kevin is absolutely perfect, and he truly is my soul mate.
He was the boy to break my heart,
but he's also the only boy who'll ever be able to mend it.
I told you, Mel... "If I knew him, I'd probably fall for him."
And I did. : )
Notes From The Author:
To my soulmate, Kevin Parent.
We were together in another life - we are together in this life - we will be together in our lives to come... And the chain will never end.
I love you.
