I met a guy through the internet, from a game called IMVU. Now this was when I was 16 and my friends and I always went on there to joke around and have fun.I wasn't your usual 16 year old though, I wanted more than just dating around..at the time, I only dated 1 guy because I hated dating around. In the game, I noticed a guy that was alone and I decided to approach him. I said hi and after that, we started talking more and more and eventually, we grew pretty close to each other. We would talk through emails and Messages and we would try to talk on the phone. There were times where he wouldn't be on for days so I figured he lost interest or something but eventually, I would receive something from him. After months of talking, he told me that he really likes me and wished we could meet in person but it was impossible with that fact that we both lived in different states..He lived in Texas and I live in Pennsylvania. He had a webcam so he would show himself when we got the chance to talk. He wasn't like most guys...he wanted to know more about me as a person, he always knew how to make me smile when I didn't want to, he made sure that I was happy. I wondered though all the time why he never wanted to get closer to me but later I found out why. He always tried to stay distant when it came to our feelings for each other...he told me how he felt though, he told me he wanted to be with me, that he would wait until I'm 18 to be together...to one day even get married, but that's when he said, it'll never happen for him. He told me he can't fall in love with someone and have someone fall in love with him. It kind of made me wonder what he was up to. He told me and even showed me his health condition..I noticed a hospital band around his wrist, and that is when he told me he has a mass in his brain. He told me about the surgery that he can get done to remove it, and he would have gotten it if he was able to be the same person after it, but the surgery would change his life completely. He would not be able to walk, he could lose his eye sight, he wouldn't be able to function the way we function today, and he didn't want that. He wanted to be able to be the man of the house, to be the one who can do everything and anything possible...he didn't want to end up in a wheel chair and having someone have to watch him and take care of him. He didn't want that put on anyone especially me. I told him that I wouldn't mind taking care of him. Love has always been an important thing in my life, and I did love him. He told me that he wants to live what life he has left doing the things he loves..being with family..working...enjoying earth while he can. He told me to meet other people, get to know someone, and to look for someone like him so that one day when I do meet that right guy, I can tell him how he reminds me of someone I once knew. I still have him on my mind..I still look for that guy that reminds me of him..because deep down I do know I deserve better than what I've had, but now I am 18, and I have met someone, but in some ways, I worry whether or not I'm the one for him. There are times where I wish things were different, but life goes on for me, and even though he is gone...I still feel like he's watching over me.
by Nikki622
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