Love Stories

Pretending 

by somegirl

it was middle of the year 2008...early of june...i have a huge crush towards this guy..but worst, he was my ex close friends...i don't really notice him but hey he is one of my group friends,only we don't really talk much..he is cute...what can i say, i like him..n i just hardly explain my feeling..eversince he offered to help me out carrying the table outside the class, some stupid incident in the computer lab ( he was outside the computer lab peeking whether anyone was in the computer lab through the door and cooincidencely i was doing the same thing inside the com lab peeking whether any of the teachers pass by becoz students were not allowed to enter the com lab without permission..well, students do break rules...haha)and there it goes, both peeking in the same door, eyes to eyes, so close...and i was like shout out loud to myself ..i pretended it was cool, as if like i dont mind..but wat get into my nerves is i was blushing..its so obvious...i was pretending making jokes wit ma girlfriends so that he would not finds out...but these make me likes him more...im tryin to ignore..make as if i was juz mesmerized by his look..and yea, i put this belief for few months..everytime we talk, i'll try to keep it cool so he would not notice...i was pretending i dont give a damn thing when he is around...but how i wish i could tell him i cant barely breathe everytime he stand close to me..i felt so nice everytime he pass by me...i stare at him when he is not looking and i get so nervous when i find he caught me starring..however, days past by...we actually get closer as a friend...we manage to talk about some topics mostly in a group of conversations...i like the way he makes fun of his friends...n everytime he looks and smiles at me..it feels realy nice makes me dieing for his smile...lol..it was the end of year...school was bout to end...then prom night and later graduation...n yea its kinda late to know him deeper wen we are about goin through different track of our own life...we hanged out later that night after the last paper of examination and also the last day of school with other friends...then the next day, he and friends invited us to hang out together, maybe somehow it was the last day we hang out..sound kinda sad to me...he and some friends drove to my house and picked me up then we went for a walk and drinks..he sat next to me..he did some cute moves dat i juz can never resist of givin the attention..he then sent us home...i was the last one..its me and him together in the car..we talked...both of us asked similar questions...after that two questions, it was quiet all the way long..he was busy focus in his driving and i was pretending something interesting on my cellphone...im a girl who never do first moves and dont even have the guts to tell him how much i like him...soon i reached home i had the last glance...and i know i will never have the chance to tell him...on that nite i was wondering if he likes me too...if he feels the same, the way i do...it never stop playing in my mind...i was wishing to make him mine...dreamin how we should be...i know it sound silly but these are the only things i can do...we are always pictured as a friend and that will never change...i know things will never be the same if fulfilled..it might be wrong to tell him please love me too..he probably will finds someone better than i do...and i dont wanna be the one who just in love...this memories would last but now its over...i have save a lot of words and we were not together...i will remember him always...it is always hidden...the greatest thing i have written....